i removed

here i am
suspended
between then and there
now
a glimpse
of dark nothingness
as my mind
dissolves into everything
expanding stillness
and silken breath
there just is
the smooth peace
of i removed

truth be told

something is happening
a transformation
inner becoming outer and
melting into the world
not the secular world
not humanity's world
but an extraordinary world

is the world an illusion?
or is the illusion the
humanization of the world?
the thought of being above
of being master, holding dominion over
the illusion of ownership
when the truth lies in belonging

the world is not an illusion
the thinking of humanity is
and soon the truth will be told
humanity as one strand
in the web of life
not apart from or above
but belonging to

it is not the physical world
that will dissolve
but humanity's thinking
shifting into an understanding
of equal magnificence and
aligned with the essence
of an enchanted world

just standing

standing in the light of your love
just standing
resisting the urge to reach out and grasp hold

standing in the light of your love
just standing
releasing the need to control

standing in the light of your love
just standing
accepting the chaos of feelings and thoughts

standing in the light of your love
just standing
allowing the fears to consume and dissolve

standing in the light of your love
just standing
feeling the pull of your heart on mine

standing in the light of your love
just standing
receiving the moment you reach for me

broken open

i want
to be broken open
the hardness of my heart
pried away
revealing
a softness

i want

to be broken open

fractures and fissures

revealing

a passage

i want
to be broken open
fear and resistance
shields and blockades
crumbling
to sand
revealing
an inner space

i want
to be broken open
feeling the willingness
to receive
and revealing
the sun

in my soul

end of a dream

leaves of the tree
delicate and fragile
unfurl
bringing life to a dream
a creation lived
vibrant and bold
as seasons pass
a natural cycle
is brought to rest
withering and frail
the essential ending
an expression of readiness
releasing to receive
the beauty and potential
unfurling
in a delicate
new beginning

twilight

twilight
eclipses
the movement of my soul
and i reach out
for heaven's embrace
this star
burning in the night sky

within her
i am absorbed
nourished
warm pulse of the earth
flowing through my veins
like a red river
of life

through him
i am breathed
sustained
effervescent light
filling the emptiness
like blue fills the sky
on a cloudless day

dawn
emerges
from the dance of my soul
and i receive
heaven's embrace
this star
shining in the night sky

nathea

i hear her calling
my eternal Mother
from far beyond
this earthen veil
her voice ripples through me
and lingers sweetly
upon the precipice of time

the delicate chanting 
of my name dances
on the cool flickers of sunshade
that grace the wilderness
do not forget
her luminous whispers resonate
as my naked feet partake
of her euphoric essence
and my skin inhales
her fragrant pulse
invoking a wildness within me

a wildness unleashed
to roam free of this world
the truth of who i am
arising to walk
with alien footsteps
on this illusive creation
and i remember
for a moment
i remember

one step beyond the clouds

one step
beyond the clouds
and into
the radiant light
of my heart

tendrils that have
threatened
to consume me
dissolving
themselves consumed
by the light
that fills me

and i step forward
into a new life
no longer defined
by history
but lived through
the love that is

hekate

sweet goddess of the dark night
after years of fruitless searching
your arrival is immanent
i sense the vitality of your presence
on the doorstep of my soul

walk with me, you whisper
your voice ruptures the threshold of resistance
grasping hold of my life
you usher me to certain destruction
tortured steps into the underworld

the glow of your flickering torch
softly illuminates my tired face
a tormented cascade that carries me
floating heavily, deeper and deeper
in a cold, black, bottomless sea

i have been ripped apart, devoured
while you steadily kept watch
at your alter i offer my remnants
the refuse of a surrendered life
an existential emptying into the void

your lunar light nourishes me
as i am absorbed into the mystery
light and dark in me become as one
and i stand at the edge of the unknown
turning to face the brilliant light of day

little drops of moonbeams

little drops of moonbeams
swimming in the stars
twirling past the milky way
and dancing around mars

little drops of moonbeams
playing in the night
shining on the clouds above
that hide their brilliant light

little drops of moonbeams
whispering a prayer
bathed in lunar energy
soaring through the air

little drops of moonbeams
falling all around
tinkering on window panes
and splashing to the ground

little drops of moonbeams
sweet nature's lullaby
rejoicing in their journey
as they travel from the sky

life emerging

there is no spring
for a life emerging
no breath
no cry
no vision nor thought
catapulted into
a dizzying cacophony
confusing chaos of
bright lights, colors, sounds
mesmerizing
overwhelming and exciting
spinning upside down
spiraling inside out
and suddenly

stop

a split second
collapsing into the silence
of an eternal pause
the space between
two worlds
before arising
arriving
breaching the surface
with a rushing gasp for air
relief of
the first breath
which is
life emerging